mama’s got a new pair of shoes

Posted by rach on 07 Jan 2009 | Tagged as: glory days, musings

i ran for the first time in a long time last night.  for me, a long time = 2-3 years.  the sibling rivalry classic challenge is definitely going to motivate me in terms of cardio.  i’m typically motivated to workout, but cardio has always been a challenge.  it’s a total workout, really, and i know it’s tough for most.

however, last night was one of the first times that i actually enjoyed running.  was it my new (properly fitted) running shoes?  that certainly helped.  i think it was more of a mental thing though.  and i think that’s a result of my yoga practice.  i simply connected to the breathe and body like i do in yoga, and the time actually flew by.  i ran for only about 30 minutes so as not to kill myself on my first day back.  but it was great!  and i’m not hurting too badly today.   i figured if i can hold some of the postures in yoga for 5 breathes, i can run a couple of miles.  it certainly works lol.

i think i’ll run again on thursday. :)

traditional new year’s ponderings post

Posted by rach on 05 Jan 2009 | Tagged as: musings

in light of  a tradition i decided to set for myself last year, it’s time to post the ponderings for 2009.  i hate resolutions because they’re very temporary.  i prefer to have goals or ideas for what i’d like to shoot for.  i still frequently forget those things by mid-year, but it never hurts to write it down neverthless.

first and foremost is travel.  i really think 2009 will be another big travel year for me because i really think my mind is set on it.  europe has been calling to me, and though i’m not sure exactly where or when (would like to do it when it’s good weather), i’m going to get across the pond one way or another.  the beach is also a must, considering i’m only a couple of hours away.  it’s generally an affordable option.  and of course, i’d like to get back out to the west coast to see the family.  2008 was a great year of revisiting my extended family and spending quality time with my aging grandparents.  must do more of that!

next is the workout regimen.  the last part of 2008 was a time of transition.  many of the habits i developed throughout 2008 fell off the radar as i transitioned into a new job which changed my schedule among other things.  the first quarter will involve Sibling Rivalry Classic, so that should be a great motivator to get me started in 2009.  i ended 2008 by restarting my yoga practice, as well.

one last thing that has been more prominently on my mind as 2008 came to a close was my involvement (or lack thereof) in music.  one of my goals last year was to get back in touch with my (non-electronic) artsy side, which meant drawing, writing, doing music (singing, playing guitar, whatever), or something along those lines.  while those things didn’t quite take hold last year, i think music will be a bigger part of my life this year, primarily because it’s naturally in my thoughts these days.  the guitar sits in my great room…calling to me.  i shall answer it today.

sibling rivalry classic

Posted by rach on 05 Jan 2009 | Tagged as: glory days

the brothers and i have decided to embark on a first quarter fitness competition.  should make the first quarter more interesting.

Sibling Rivalry Classic
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Goal: To get an otherwise out of shape group of Kendall siblings into a virile, vibrant, and vivacious state of health.

To win: Winner must win two of the three criteria specified below.  Losers will pay $100 each to the winner.  No second place.  In the case of a three way tie (ie, all three win one of the three criteria), a run-off will be held in which all three criteria will be measured, executed in sequence.  An unnamed third party will measure the execution of the criteria and provide the final ruling.

Begin date: 1/1/2009 12:00AM (tonight @ midnight)
Target date: 3/31/09 with criteria measurement on 4/4/09 (weekend)

Success criteria:

  1) Fastest one mile run
      - Run will be recorded on a treadmill for equal comparison
      - Second mile of a run; this will allow a 1 mile warm up at any speed and avoid any of us hurting ourselves
  2) Push-ups
      - Two criteria: 1) Number of push ups in 1 minute and 2) Number of push ups to exhaustion
      - Criteria #1 will be measured on 4/4
      - Criteria #2 measured on 4/5
  3) Crunches
      - Crunches will be measured based on number of crunches performed in 2 minutes

Rules:

  - No performance enhancing substances (Creatine, etc.)
  - No trainers, paid or otherwise
  - Vitamins are allowed and in fact encouraged
  - Don’t hurt yourself; this isn’t meant to push limits, only to test our respective abilities in physical fitness

snow crash

Posted by rach on 22 Dec 2008 | Tagged as: reading room

Snow Crash Rach gave 5 of 5 stars5 of 5 stars5 of 5 stars5 of 5 stars5 of 5 stars to: 
Snow Crash (Paperback) 
by Neal Stephenson 
my rating:

didn't like itit was okliked itreally liked itit was amazing (my current rating) 
edit my review 
shelf: read

 
recommended for: philosphers (lots of ideas in this one), geeks
read in October, 2008 

RachRach said: “ great book! lots of twists and turns amongst the various worlds of a “not so distant future.” there were glimpses of a “1984″ influence which was neat since i read that not too long ago. really intriguing topic in terms of what’s a virus and what’s the antidote.

also from the plane - a blog post

Posted by rach on 23 Oct 2008 | Tagged as: musings

6:58pm EDT 10-16-08

as i watched the amazing clouds float by on the first leg of my trip to sacramento, i became inspired.  i’ve written a lot less frequently these days as i have cleared many extraneous entities from my life.  without much drama, i lack motivation to write.  funny how writing seems to be that way with a lot of artists.  if they’re not tortured, they’re not inspired and thus they don’t produce. 

however, i digress.

i am currently inspired as i’ve never really had an opportunity to see such an amazing array of clouds permeate the horizon.  i rarely even get a window seat much less one with a decent view.  despite the seating, i frequently fly at night or the clouds are too thick to be anything other than a white landlike mass or it’s clear as a bell with only the cities and towns to entertain me from far below.  not today.

it was fascinating to watch the clouds from above them.  while they don’t look all that different, the perspective was fresh and interesting.  the change in perspective and my unusual awe prompted me to draw the analogy of the change in perspective that i’ve been developing over the last several months (actually, years, but my efforts have only recently been solidifying into results). 

the changes are difficult to quantify.  one of the most obvious recent changes has been in my job.  while it’s primarily a surface change with good financial and goal-oriented reasons, i view it also as a time to start over at a new job.  the change in perspective in relation to work has been to disconnect from the personal relationships that i tend to develop at a company.  i never realized how much those personal relationships can interfere with work.  this is a difficult task for someone with the social tendencies that i have.  i like to have fun and be friendly, but i’m learning that these things have a very specific place in the professional work environment. 

this shift in philosophy has been difficult for me because at the same time, i’m also realizing what it truly means to be true to myself.  this is yet another reason for finding a new job.  no matter the reasons, pushing myself in my career and/or education has always been one of the ways for me to be true to myself.  i must put myself in situations where i can not only succeed, but succeed beyond what anyone else would ever have imagined.  yes…i’m an over-achiever lol.

while it’s not a new idea to be true to myself, how i go about it is a little different these days.  i’m working on not simply pascifying people so “we can all get along.”  that means being honest about who i want to hang out with, being honest to people about who i am and what i believe, and making no apology for any of those things.  if i have to apologize for something, then why the hell am i doing it? 

these are tough changes to make.  i feel like i’m trying to turn a giant ship that’s charging ahead at full speed.  that’s why, despite a couple of years of trying to make some changes, the transformation is only now taking shape.  i look forward to what’s next.  it’s a never-ending cycle, and i know this won’t be the last of it.  but the fruits of my labor are ripening.  i see the clouds from above instead of just below.

written on the plane

Posted by rach on 23 Oct 2008 | Tagged as: musings

as i flew out of my city last week, i saw the most amazing clouds as we chased the sunset westward.  here’s the first result of the view…

between the blankets
6:50pm EDT 10-16-08

drifting by
can’t tell the depths
usually looking up
but now looking down
upon the puffs of white
dotting the terra firma

some swoosh and whisp
others tower and flow
stuck between the layers
can’t quite tell which are up
not sure which are down
slowly they consume me

envelope me
cover me with your cushion
over the top of my head
underneath both my feet
how could i want to be stuck
between these blankets of clouds

i am in awe
you’ve been wrapped ’round
lovingly covering my soul
gently cradling my spirit
i want to be forever stuck
between your blankets of love

spam comments plugin, take 3223564563

Posted by rach on 04 Sep 2008 | Tagged as: general

upon raj’s recommendation, i installed spam karma for wordpress to mitigate comment spam. please let me know if you have any issues commenting.

ty and gl!

gotcha’ captcha!

Posted by rach on 11 Aug 2008 | Tagged as: general

i just upgraded to wordpress 2.6, and installed a CAPTCHA plugin to reduce the amount of spam comments. please e-mail me if you can’t comment (rkendall (at no spam) prandom dot com).

also, frawnies that categories got all jacked up… :(

religion @ work

Posted by rach on 09 Jul 2008 | Tagged as: gripes

i ate my lunch in the break room today (unusual, but i gotta’ save money somewhere), and sat amidst a conversation i chose only to observe. the partakers of the conversation were coworkers, most with whom i don’t associate myself with the only exception being my sifu.

seemingly out of nowhere, the guy sitting next to me commented that the leader of FDLS, Warren Jeffs, should be “tortured for the things he’s done.” that lead to a conversation about religion (one of the topics that shouldn’t be discussed with coworkers IMO). most of the comments were centered around “i think this sect is a cult” or “that sect is a cult.”

do you see why i refrained from participating?

most of you know i’m not religious, and you know the reasons (can you say smothered?). while my perspective is not unique in this world, i seemed to be the only one at the table who saw a lack of respect for people who believe something different (sometimes vastly). at one point, the guy sitting next to me commented that the mormon faith seemed to originate from drug-induced experiences (the phrase “the guy licked toads” was used).

soon, the conversation led to comments saying, “i don’t know how people could believe something without any other basis.” this is where i laughed inside. what do you think non-Christians think of Christians who believe in a God with very little (solid) evidence? that’s what faith is about. i’m not here to argue about what religion or teaching is right. what i do want to point out is that trying to discount a belief system just because you don’t “get it” is stupid. it’s simply an appeal to ridicule (thanks, charlie, for the deductive logic lesson!).

morning adventure

Posted by rach on 18 Jun 2008 | Tagged as: glory days, musings

brain
enjoying the outdoors
this morning when i got done getting ready, brain was indicating that she wanted to go outside (figured it was to poop). so i let her out, and she bolts to the corner of the yard where the trees are. she seems to be chasing something, but i can’t tell what she’s after…until i see one of the bunnies has found it’s way into the back yard. so brain chases the rabbit around the trees for a bit, and the rabbit is furiously trying to find a way out of the fence (he keeps running into the fence hoping to get under or through it).

after a couple of laps around the trees, brain finally catches the rabbit! the bunny goes limp, and brain carries it around the yard proudly. i call for her to bring it to me, but of course she doesn’t listen. i go down into the yard, and make brain sit and drop (she did NOT want to give that rabbit up!). i finally get the rabbit out of her mouth, and allow the bunny to go free.

i sent brain inside because the rabbit STILL couldn’t get out of the fence. it actually got itself stuck trying to squeeze itself through the wiring. i had to help it squeeze it’s hind legs through the wiring to get it out lol.

it was quite an adventure, and i know brain was disappointed that i made her give up her catch (she kept obsessing about going outside when i brought her in). it was really funny watching her walked around with the rabbit in her mouth. wish i had gotten a pic of it.


ff3

Posted by rach on 17 Jun 2008 | Tagged as: supergeek

just downloaded and installed firefox 3. i have to admit, i’m impressed with the interface, though i’m partial to a simpler address bar (don’t need the page title on most of the links i visit directly, not to mention many places forget page titles lol).

i’m also happy that only 1 of my (very few) plugins doesn’t work. it’s one i can live without for a bit.

be one of the million + to download it today.

fairytale

Posted by rach on 03 Jun 2008 | Tagged as: general

once upon a time, in a land far far away, a small-framed girl toiled away at a computer. a monster had captured her and locked her in his castle tower and forced her to program applications to run his internet business (which actually consisted of many endeavors).

she worked well into every night, and received very little rest. whenever the monster was in a board meeting or networking with customers, she took a break and sat in the single window of the castle tower. she looked across the fields at the town where she lived. on the edge of the town, she could see her friends grilling and laughing and having fun. she was very tired of eating bad fast food and not getting enough exercise, but escaping the monster would take a lot of effort.

she wasn’t sure which route she would take to escape the monster’s clutches. but she was formulating her plan every day. the sunshine and breeze beckoned her to reach a solution soon. she must return to a more balanced life with her friends and family.

until then, she continued appeasing the monster, hoping to get a little more sleep after the next deadline was met. maybe with a little more rest, she would see her plan come to fruition.

the end (or is it…?)

2+2=5

Posted by rach on 28 May 2008 | Tagged as: supergeek

i finished reading “1984″ by george orwell this weekend. it was an amazing book. if you haven’t read it yet, i would highly recommend checking it out. it’s all about big brother and one man’s fight against him. while orwell portrays an extreme government, i found some interesting similarities to people in power today, particularly concerning “doublethink.”

doublethink “is the act of simultaneously accepting two mutually contradictory beliefs” (wikipedia).

according to the novel…

The power of holding two contradictory beliefs in one’s mind simultaneously, and accepting both of them . . . . To tell deliberate lies while genuinely believing in them, to forget any fact that has become inconvenient, and then, when it becomes necessary again, to draw it back from oblivion for just so long as it is needed, to deny the existence of objective reality and all the while to take account of the reality which one denies — all this is indispensably necessary. Even in using the word doublethink it is necessary to exercise doublethink. For by using the word one admits that one is tampering with reality; by a fresh act of doublethink one erases this knowledge; and so on indefinitely, with the lie always one leap ahead of the truth.

i didn’t immediately make connections to my reality when i read that paragraph. however, the more i turned it over in my mind, the more i understood the macrocosm that orwell was describing. we see evidence of doublethink all the time. not only in governments who refuse to admit they were wrong, but in the corporate world where management (a form of government…or is government a form of corporation? another post all together!) demonstrates this type of behavior. lying not only to people around you (whether you “intend” to or not), but most importantly lying to one’s self.

i find it fascinating that this line of thinking actually exists at some level. but it’s not entirely surprising. i’ve grown up around many people who have been lied to and continue to lie to themselves. few search for the truth. the search is difficult, as orwell demonstrated with the main character, winston. there is much questioning, not only in which facts are truthful but also in which people are being truthful.

so what to do with this knowledge of doublethink? if you embark on the search for truth, ultimately, you have denied yourself doublethinking. you can’t do it. you either search, engage in doublethink, or simply claim ignorance. as for me, i’ve chosen to search. it’s not easy, and often times, it’s lonely. most people don’t understand, and those that do are not only rare, but are often at a different point in their journey.

in the book, winston is told that big brother says that 2+2=5. in a demonstration to see if he has accepted doublethink, he is asked what 2+2 is. while 4 is the right answer, it is also the wrong answer. this is the essence of his struggle against big brother…against lying to himself…in an effort to maintain truth.

2+2=4 no matter what they say. they’ll never break me.

randomness

Posted by rach on 14 May 2008 | Tagged as: artsy fartsy, supergeek

what else did you expect? :D

i’ve taken some photos recently, and plan on submitting one of them to a local art center for a members show. any feedback (or suggestions on something else to submit), please let me know. be honest!

also, if you use firefox and don’t have picLens yet, you should check it out. it’s the best method of browsing flickr and other sites with photos on them (all of them lol).

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