argh.  multiple job opportunities at time warner, but i don’t think they’ll be flexible enough to work with school. 

certain sacrifices must be made for the greater good.

in light of recent acquisition of a stalker, i’m looking to purchase a gun. 

it is merely a precautionary measure to ensure my survival.  i haven’t done anything to threaten this person, but for some reason, he’s gotten a little psycho.  who knows…  maybe a few too many paint chips as a kid.

so any suggestions on what heat i should be packin’? 

’cause i’m OG an’ i’ll pop a cap in yo’ ass!  w0rd!

i’m very thankful for the ability to change my perception.  without it, i would be in a constant state of depression.

i’m thankful for people who help me realize that, while i cannot change the world (most of the time), i can certainly change how i see the world.

happy thanksgiving.

you’re so fucking wrong.

rednecks?  you’re really one to talk.

i’m glad i’m rid of your whiny ass.

and don’t even play like i didn’t tell you to fuck off or tell you that i didn’t want to make amends again!  i told you EXACTLY how it was.  you just decided to take a different perception…a very wrong perception.

fuckin’ bitch.

there are few things where i classify as “your typical girl.”  chocolate is one of those things. 

i love chocolate milk.  there’s been a double chocolate milk drink in the vending machine for a couple of days, and normally, i shy away from chocolate that is that concentrated.

not today, baby.

disclaimer: i consider myself a modern woman.  i think men and women are both equally capable of certain things.  i’m very focused on my education and career, and don’t have much thought of raising my family any time soon (soon is < 10yrs).  so take all that i write here with a grain of salt.

there are some good arguments against marriage these days.  at least, the kind of wreckless marriage that many people participate in. 

warning: all you feminist types won’t like these links because…well…you’re all selfish bitches and the site basically calls you on it. 

i firmly believe in the equality of men and women, but i don’t believe that means that we have the same responsibilities, especially when it comes to marriage.  two people cannot play the same role in such a PARTNERSHIP.  and honestly, i’m not partial to the idea of switching roles (within the marriage).

women these days don’t know how to be wives.  i have spent my whole like not being like the selfish princess girls that are being raised to be “barbie dolls” or made-up, fakers.

re: marriage… as a wife, it would be my place to manage the house (manage groceries, chores, etc.–not necessarily do ALL those things, but MANAGE them…and do many of them); make sure the kids are taken care of; and make sure my husband (and provider of all things) is happy and comfortable.

i’m very traditional in my views though (obviously).  i think it’s very natural for the woman to hold such a role.  the trick to marriage is partnership.  it’s not about one person being superior to another…it’s about helping each other attain your life goals.  so obviously, you need common goals as well.

and the guy’s site is right about women being messed up…  that’s why we often seek an emotionally stable guy who well help encourage us to be a better person and to really take a look at ourselves.  but most women are lazy and don’t really want to fix themselves, so they end up with a pussy man who’ll put up with her.

it’s a fascinating study. and those are my random thoughts on the topic.

i get the question “when are you and charles getting married?” a lot!!  we’ve been together 4yrs so naturally people are asking (and we’re living together, which is a sin to everyone in our families lol).  i’ve begun telling them never.  *shrug*  i’m not going to get married because everyone else thinks i should.

damn. what a hassle.

hello world!  it’s every programmer’s first little program.  i’ve personally programmed that phrase to pop up many times (and i haven’t even been programming for long…well…not as much as i have been lately).

i’m learning java now.  in my job browsing, i see that Java is a valuable skill.  it has so many uses…and it’s just what i’ve been looking for.  i always had a hard time enjoying c/c++.  they are cold and impractical (to me), and i had a hard time finding a place in my heart for them.

well, java seems to be the answer for my desire to integrate complex, flexible code and the usefulness of the intArwebz.  i think…

i don’t know.  i’m just blathering.  i’m actually excited about learning java.  and perhaps it will show me the way with c++.  i firmly believe in keeping an open mind.

nearly $4,000,000 has been collected (based on the avg settlement) from file-swappers by the RIAA.

fuckers.

some random linkage for the masses.

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jim carrey’s all things to all men.  i agree with his assessment of god – that buddha, krishna, God, etc. are all the same god.  i know some of you don’t believe in god for various reasons.  i do, though, and i have my reasons (another topic altogether).  i’m much more open-minded about god, which i’m sure my conservative christian parents would crap their pants about.  whether you believe god really exists or not, there’s no entity that a man could create that would be 100% accurate if god is really a/the god.

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we are the tech support generation–generation TS?

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chixx0r m4gAz33n  i’d wanna be a c0v3r girl for that mag!!

wtf?!  there weren’t any boobies in site!!!

thanks, for the coolest car. commercial. EVAR!!

you didn’t understand
there was nothing i could say to make you
no words were enough
it was to end this way
one way or another

no eloquence is found here
only raw emotion
it’s cold and dark here
how familiar
won’t stay here long this time

social boundaries
my boundaries
it’s all the same really
for it’s my decision what boundaries i put up
but it wasn’t quite your standard

i don’t care.
i’ll drink the kool-aid with them
at least they don’t fly off the handle
when i do something they don’t like
can’t handle the heat? get out of the kitchen

conventional
like the rest of them
locked into a prison of my own construction
i’m SO predictable
perception is truly a powerful thing.

i’m glad this is finally over.  now we can all move on.

don’t know if this is really fallujah, but i’m sure it’s similar either way.

my younger bro goes over the end of jan.

q. so if the election was “truly” stolen from kerry, why the hell doesn’t he (or any other top member of the democratic party) challenge the election? 

a. BECAUSE IT’S NOT TRUE!!

rumors, rumors everywhere

stop being sore losers.  i voted for kerry, but i’m not gonna be a baby about it.  bush won by 3.5mill votes!!!!!!!!1111  WTF?!~?!?!

fuck off

(source definition #3)

i love this commercial!!

i’m sorry

this is a phat couch!

some serious programmers bury their mortal code.

something i’ve always had a “problem” with is deciding what i truly feel and believe to be right. throughout my childhood, i simply followed the rules of church and the christian faith–blindly. now that i’m an adult, it’s difficult, when i’m conversing with someone, not to take on that person’s subconscious as my own.

i refer to the subconscious becase i don’t realize that i’m doing it. it’s definitely not at the forefront of my mind. even when i’m consciously trying to analyze what i truly feel, if there’s someone else around (conversing with me), i find it extremely difficult to sort through everyone else’s opinion and mine.

it’s strange.

it’s empathy.

it’s deeper than empathy.

it’s like i absorb the subconscious (the energy) of the other person. it’s very odd.

difficult to explain.

some days, i really wish i could turn it off.

Purple haze all in my brain
Lately things just don’t seem the same
Actin’ funny, but I don’t know why
’scuse me while I kiss the sky
Purple haze all around
Don’t know if I’m comin’ up or down
Am I happy or in misery?
What ever it is, that girl put a spell on me

-jimi

i like it!