today, i was offered and accepted the job that i really wanted. it’s a 50% pay increase from what i currently make, so i’d say that’s a step in the right direction.

i’m really excited with the direction my life is taking! i’m in a great mood!!

conan o’brien gives his view on the future, particularly in television.

“this is a once in a lifetime opportunity!”

someone said that to me this past November when i ended up not taking a job that i was looking at. there were actually 2 parts to why i didn’t join that team–1: the interviewer didn’t really feel like i understood what he wanted and 2: i didn’t really want to get into a job like that at that time (would’ve been 50+ hrs/week and i needed to get through school).

now i’m only 18 hours away from graduation, and spread out over the next 2 months, i will have more flexibility to work a 50 hour week if need be.

when i started REALLY looking for a job, i was surprised at how many possibilities there were. so i put my resume out there to everyone. i got 3 interviews with 3 different companies! holy crap! i thought that opportunities weren’t really that abundant.

needless to say, i’ve had some options. i certainly don’t believe that any opportunity is “once in a lifetime.” especially since i make my opportunities… heh.

5 yrs ago today, i met a man who would change my life. it’s been a great 5 yrs, and i expect it to continue.

this is how great my main squeeze is:

2 dozen roses delivered to work! that’s enough to make a woman giddy!

…and i didn’t even realize that today was the anniversary of our meeting. what a great guy!

weeee surfing teh webz0rz is fun!!

check out this solar death ray!

took a free color quiz tonight… because i’m a girl and have a hard time seperating myself from emotion sometimes, i can’t tell if the results are generic like a horoscope or not. perhaps some of you intelligent readers can help me determine that…

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Free personality analysis from ColorQuiz.com.
Generated on Mon May 16 20:18:18 2005.

Your Existing Situation
Working to create for herself a firm foundation on which to erect a secure, comfortable, and problem-free future, in which she will be granted respect and recognition.

Your Stress Sources
Wants to overcome a feeling of emptiness and to bridge the gap which she feels separates herself from others. Anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to explore all its possibilities, and to live it to the fullest. She therefore resents any restriction or limitation being imposed on her and insists on being free and unhampered.

Your Restrained Characteristics
Becomes distressed when her needs or desires are misunderstood and feels that she has no one to turn to or rely on. Egocentric and therefore quick to take offense.

Your Desired Objective
Seeks an affectionate relationship, offering fulfillment and happiness. Capable of powerful emotional enthusiasm. Helpful, and willing to adapt herself if necessary to realize the bond of affection she desires. Needs the same consideration and understanding from others.

Your Actual Problem
Does not wish to be involved in differences of opinion, contention or argument, preferring to be left in peace.

Your Actual Problem #2
Needs to achieve a stable and peaceful condition, enabling her to free herself of the worry that she may be prevented from achieving all the things she wants.

lmst is what my younger bro will be learning while in the sand box. the good news it that he shouldn’t be over there for the solid 14 months he had thought. the bad news is that he’ll be back for a little while to get trainined in satellite communications, and then go back to the sand box for a period (not sure how long). he’s extended his contract with the usmc for a few months.

i’m glad he’s psyched about learning something new over there though. learning new things always makes a job more tolerable and valuable.

i LOVE the new NIN!!! have i said that lately?

i’m very happy right now. not the giddy, falling over with laughter happy. it’s more of a…content…finally i’m moving forward happy. i’ve spent the last year cleaning my mental house. subconsciously, i’ve been preparing for this transition for that long. if you had told me that a year ago, i probably would’ve laughed in your face.

heh.

this year is truly a transition…

from college to “whatever you call the next stage”
from renting to owning
from “it pays the bills” to “this is what i want to do”
from “what about now” to “what about the future”

i’ve been more introspective lately because i’ve had more time to myself. with the boyfriend working 2nd shift, i get a good amount of time to mull over all the things are taking place.

and when i started this post, i had realized that deep inside, i feel content–happy, even.

< tangent >
so how did i get here? i willed it to happen. i’ve found that visualizing yourself in a situation puts you in a position to be more likely to get what you want. for example, when i first interviewed for the job that i have taken, i really wanted it. so i visualized myself in the position…i visualized all the things that happened…the offer, negotiations, acceptance, etc.

would this have happened without me willing it to be? perhaps… but how would i know for sure? it’s been my personal experience that truly believing in something can make it happen.

if anything, the true believer will subconsciously get themselves into the right position to make their situation what they want. by believing (or willing) i would get that job, i put myself in a mode where i said the right things and gave them the right signals. subconsciously, i made them want me.

hm. it’s pretty intriguing to think about whether you agree or not…
< /tangent >

…and i’ve checked out the newest nine inch nails. i’m really enjoying it. but i’m a pretty strong nin fan. been listening to them since…my older brother was in high school, which would put me in middle school at the time i was introduced to trent and co.

watched the xbox 360 unveiling tonight, and i must say, i’m not that impressed. it’s a small form factor computer that looks nice. *shrug* they didn’t really show enough of the video games to satisfy my curiosity. they showed a clip and the title…that’s about it.

and the killers sucked. reminded me of modest mouse… not sure what’s up with guys not being able to sing these days.

randomness.

my younger brother is in the area supporting the heavy fighting in western Iraq. he’s been out there for several months now. some days, i’m completely disconnected from the war. other days, i can’t help but read the casualty lists and other articles rehashing the events.

i’ve just submitted my 2 weeks notice. new job: here i come.

just had a few beers with the new neighbors. i really like this neighborhood.

saw hitchhiker’s guide to the galaxy last night. it’s a great movie. i need to read the book still, but the movie is great.

been playing a lot of forza on xbox for the last couple of days. what a fun game. and this is coming from a non-gamer. in fact, my boyfriend is really surprised that i play this one at all lol.

chai tea is best when mixed with milk as opposed to water. frothed milk makes it even better.

some good chai tea

you’ll never make any friends that way

…i saw jupiter through my crappy (but free) telescope.

…i realized i need a flat panel display for my desktop at home. i’ve grown accustomed to looking at LCDs these days (laptop or at work).

…i made dinner for the first time in the new house.

…i found out my CRT monitor will run at a 180Hz refresh rate.

another raver toy for the kiddies.